Something will come. It always does, it always will

It’s been a strange experience these past couple of weeks. I’ve been going back through all of my old writings while working on the book and finding piece after piece that I didn’t have the guts to click “publish” on at the time – for various reasons. More often than not, I’ve needed to hear the thoughts again. Sometimes we already know things; we just need reminders. So here’s my reminder for you when you find yourself in front of a closed door or regretting choices you’ve made.

I guess I always knew this day would come. I don’t know why I’m surprised that it did.

I kind of thought that when I walked away from an opportunity earlier this year that it might come back to sting. That I would have other opportunities set before me at some point that I wouldn’t qualify for. That it might be a bit of sabotage to my future self.

I was right.

I applied to positions, one by one. I watched as the emails started coming in. “We’re sorry, but…” and I had a sinking feeling. I knew that it didn’t matter to most of them what sort of track record or recommendations I had – I had to have a certain degree to qualify. I thought I would have a reaction of panic, of dismay, of regret.

But I didn’t.

If there is one thing I have learned this year, it is this:  You must first decide who you are. You must decide what you value at your core. Then, and only then, can you make decisions about which direction to go. Decide what sort of life you want to live. If something doesn’t line up with who you are – it’s out. PERIOD.

It’s a dangerous thing to judge present and past decisions based on the outcome. Don’t do it – it’s a trap. Outcomes are fickle. Outcomes can change tomorrow. Decide who you are. Then choose among the options that line up with that.

Looking back, I would make the exact same decision again. The opportunity that was presented to me would have meant me changing who I was, and that simply wasn’t an option. This life I’m living now, with my values and current qualifications, is what I have to work with. If no job, no one, no opportunity, shows up to welcome it this year – if I don’t fit in any place I wander upon – that is fine. It does not change the rightness of my decisions.

Something will come. It always does. It always will.

Decide who you are. Decide what you value. Make decisions based upon that. If you have to walk away from opportunities, from friends, from lovers, then so be it. If you have made past decisions and had different results than expected, then no regrets. Don’t judge a rightly-made decision by a temporary outcome.

Be you. Walk with confidence.
Take a deep breath, let your spirit be still.
Something will come. It always does. It always will.

About kindawilson

Kinda is an author, teacher, speaker, entrepreneur, and hopeless wanderer. Her favorite places in the world include Manarola, Italy, and Gimmelwald, Switzerland. In her free time, you can find her bargain shopping and hanging out at coffee shops.